It’s hard to imagine that a year ago, I brought 3 abandoned kittens home. we called this little one Big Brother and though he was the first to explore, he was also the most skittish of the lot. This sweet, sweet boy has a sensitive heart, an aristocratic face and tufts on the top of his ears. Thankfully all of his fear and running to escape has turned into generous purrs and an oft-proffered belly. He is the one that will sit on my lap, keeping me company while I record the podcast or write on the blog. This boy is a heart-opener.
Category: Jamie’s Life
The Studio Kittens Then & Now: Escher
For our one-year anniversary with the kittens, I thought I would share some photos of the journey. This little one started off as Grey and soon became Escher. Though his name changed, he has remained this irresistible toughie. His beauty draws you in but that raised paw keeps you out. To me the first sign that we were making real progress was when I found him sleeping on my pyjamas. Now we can pet him much of the time and occasionally he even comes for attention. He is watchful and quiet and can sometimes be found playing by himself in the kitchen. It’s hard to get to know, Mr. Escherpants, but we keep working on it every day.
The Studio Kittens Then & Now: Shibumi
This Time of Year…
The end of June is a tender time for me. Last week was the third anniversary of my Mom’s passing and I have been feeling not only her loss but also how hard it was in those final moments when we said goodbye.
Also, at this time last summer, we said goodbye to my dear sweet cat Jinx, who had been my constant companion for 20 years. She was quirky, loving and had an impressive meow vocabulary, thanks to my sister Shannon.
Last year, in the midst of all this sadness, I met up with my dear friend Danette for some coffee and comfort. Little did I know that this outing would turn into a brand new adventure, one that would ask me to open up my ravaged heart.
One year ago today I went out for that coffee and came home with three abandoned kittens. It was the last thing I expected and exactly what the Universe prescribed.
This isn’t a story of easy love. These kittens weren’t tiny bundles of fur and curiosity ready to be held and stroked and loved. They’d been taken from their mom too soon, been left on their own too long and were intensely wary of people. I didn’t know if they’d ever settle in or be open to human affection. All I knew was that I was going to do my very best to help them.
It has been an amazing journey and we have all received such love and support along the way, including from all the Aunties and the Uncle who took part in Sparkles last year. With their registrations, they made sure the kittens would get all their medical care, including being spayed and neutered. Our hearts filled with gratitude.
Over the year, these three have become a part of our family: the feisty and playful Shibumi, the delicate and sensitive Scout and the handsome and reticent Escher. They have filled our house with stories, been muse to my inner photographer, immersed us in learning about love and grown our hearts exponentially.
We never know what this life is going to bring. All we can do is show up to all that is with all that we are and hope that we will rise to the occasion and find moments of meaning and love.
Celebrating My Mom
As I sit here in the sunshine, listening to the birds, I am thinking of my mom, who passed away 3 years ago today. On this day my siblings and I were at her side. It was not like it’s described in stories or shown in movies. It was hard and painful and we did all we could to endure and rise above and be together in love.
I miss my mom everyday. I celebrate her gentleness and her fierceness. I celebrate her unwavering curiosity and love of learning. I celebrate her artistry and her vision. I even celebrate the way she would make a face and say “blech” at a restaurant when she didn’t like the coffee, especially because on the flip side of that was the pure and open delight she would show when something was yum.
We had a bit of a hard time together at the end and whenever that makes me sad I call up my memory of her looking at me and saying, “You have a good heart.”
Thank you, Mom. I got it from you.
Kitten Update: 10 Months In
In some ways it is hard to believe that it’s been almost a year since the kittens found their way into our home and our hearts. In other ways it seems like they have been here forever.
But just a year ago we were actually saying goodbye to our dear sweet Jinx who had been my constant companion for 20 years. She was an oddball but I loved her from the day my sister Shannon said, ‘What about this one?” at the Humane Society. Jinx was just a little boo and a bit of a fraidy cat but she had lots of heart, an amazing vocabulary and loved to hang out and get cuddles.
Not long after Jinx passed away, Shannon’s cat Gobo became ill suddenly and we had to say goodbye to him too. He was the gentlest, sweetest cat I’ve ever known. Nothing seemed to stress this little man out and he was always open to love and affection. I smile to remember the way he would groom the side of my head, licking me right on the temple with diligence and care.
I suppose the loss of Jinx and of Gobo left my heart wide open.
So when I came across these three abandoned kittens, they walked right in. (You can read all about that adventure here) So how are these wild ones doing? How, after all this love and attention are they settling in? Who are they becoming?
Oh, sweet Scout! He has grown into a beautiful boy with a strong aristocratic face and silky soft fur that’s just a little long and raggedy over his belly. He was the first to purr and the only one who lets us pet his tummy. He loves to sit with me in the mornings when I write. In fact, sometimes he’ll whoosh by me, running up the stairs to get to the chair first. He’ll drop and roll and offer up his belly, looking up at me with love and bliss.
We’re gently working on picking Scout up and have made great progress. It started with very small steps. I’d pick him up when he walked by, kiss him on the back of the neck and put him right back down. He’d look startled but after a while he didn’t run away. Then I started picking him up off my chair so that I could put him on my lap. The reward seemed to outweigh the indignity and so he got used to that too. This week I’ve managed to pick him up a few times, holding him close to my heart and giving him reassurance and cuddles. He’s last quite a while. Still, being the sensitive soul that he is he seems to have a sixth sense about when you’re going to pick him up and more often than not, he bolts!
It’s hard to explain but Shibumi is the heart of the pride. She’s got more personality than seems possible to contain in her little body! She’s a very active cat and several times a day she’ll drop one of her favourite balls at our feet – an invitation to play fetch. She’ll play by herself too, dropping the ball from the top of the stairs, racing down to catch it and then running back up to start the game again. She’s a fierce hunter, so much so that it’s almost impossible to play with some toys, like the ones with balls or feathers at the end of a string. She catches the toy in .0001 seconds flat, clenches it in her jaw and growls before the other two even realize we’ve brought a toy out. Game over. #shibumiwins.
That signature Shibumi fierceness translates into a confidence that sets the tone for everyone. She’s the cat who will come over when you kneel down to say hi. She’s the cat who will rub up against your legs, purring. And she’s the only cat who is comfortable being picked up. In fact, Justin has a special way with her. He holds her perched along his arm like she is a jaguar and he is a tree with arms for branches. In those moments she is clearly queen of all she surveys. When Shibumi is happy, everyone is happy.
And then there is Escher, who I, for some strange reason, like to call Escherpants. He’s a beauty with those two-toned eyes and that silvery fur. He’s the one who hangs back, who watches carefully to see if everything is okay. It’s been the longest road with this nervous boy. He has an awkwardness to him, a body language that is different than any cat I have known before. One universal cat sign though that I am delighted to see him exhibit is that confident walk with happy tail in the air, sometimes even curling into that quizzical q. Whenever I see that, I smile.
With Escher we are still working on building his comfort with being touched and we’ve come a very long way. If it’s just him and me in the room and things are quiet, he’s more open to receiving this kind of attention. He’ll let me sit with him and pet him, especially around the neck and ears and face, and he’ll purr with contentment. Sometimes he’ll be so excited about pets that he’ll do a little prance and show me his butt and let me pet him once before he walks away. He loves to sleep on any of my clothes. He curls up in my spot on the bed. Last night just as I was falling asleep I opened my eyes and there he was just looking at me, purring. After a few gentle pets, he lay down and fell asleep.
My sense about Escher is tha the is open to love but that he can find physical affection overstimulating. The sensations can all become too much for him but still, particularly in the quite moments, it seems clear that he is happy to be here.
Sunday with the Kittens: Stress, Growth & Progress
Last week we reached a new level of intimacy with The Studio Kittens. With several days of work required to put new pipes in our basement, the kittens had to be contained in one spot for several days. Where did we decide was the best idea? Our bedroom! When did we rethink this? Several mornings at 4:00 am, which seemed to be prime kitten activity time! Having said that, generally they were very well-behaved and we had lots and lots of time for cuddles and love.
Shibumi is still sick with idiopathic cystitis. Unfortunately, this is due to stress and I’m sure all of that construction did not help at all. The vet has recommended new food for her and also trying Feliway, which is a synthesized cat pheromone spray that helps calm the kitten nerves. I think this is going to be a boon for everyone! The amazing thing is that even though Shibumi is fighting this health issue, she is still full of vim and vigour! She has discovered the game of fetch and is relentless in her pursuit of her sponge soccer ball. She even stands at the top of the stairs and drops it so she can chase after it!
Progress with Escher is slow but I remind myself all the time that it is also steady. Now, if he’s lying down he’s generally open to some attention. He’ll even stretch out and purr. But if he’s sitting like this or walking around or if he’s in the kitchen and you move your hand towards him, he’ll raise his to swat. It’s okay, Escher. We’ll move at your pace. Gentle, gentle. Slow, slow.
Scout has turned into a real lovebug. He often sits behind me on my chair while I work. When I pet him, he often immediately drops and offers up his belly for rubs. When I hang out with him, I literally feel my breathing and heart rate slowing. He has some magic mojo, this one.
It’s amazing to see them not only their progress but also their transformation as they grow from kittens to cats right before our eyes. They are so clearly teenagers right now! It’s amazing just how often we walk into a room and they scatter, knowing they are about to get caught doing whatever crazy thing they’ve been doing. We’re likely to find Escher scrounging for a bit of food on the counter or sink. This week Scout we saw triumphantly strutting up the stairs with a sour cream container from the recycling bin. And Shibumi, well, Shibumi just wants to play.
No matter how much they grow, they’ll always be “The Kittens” to us.